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All I Have
05:13
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The stench is rancid on my lips
They're stained from you
Can't come clean like they used to
The light is closing in
Can't stand the person that I've been
It's blinding me
I still can't breathe when you're around me
(or) see when you're around me
I can break his name
Watch it all fade
The city we have built
The sweat and blood spilt
I would throw it all away, for you, anything
I can mend this truth or I can leave it up to you
But if you light it I will watch it burn
Don't depend on me, oh the sweet irony
As if I could actually, depend on you
I can't take this back
Though I wish I could
If you could only see, the things inside of me
They will destroy everything
What you see is what you get
My head held high, filled with regret
I know this bridge was built to break
I hope you're there when it falls
I'm the only one who treads upon
You can watch as I lose it all
I've got my veins all crossed
I've never been this so far gone
Just know I want to leave
But I know you need me
I can mend this truth or I can leave it up to you
But if you light it I will watch it burn
Don't depend on me, oh the sweet irony
As if I could actually, depend on you
I don't want your excuse, its about me
If you'd prefer somewhere else, by all means
I bet you'd like me to sing, so softly
In the morning you wake, what a fantasy
You're scarabs in my skin
You are my crimson stain
Feed from me you sheep
I'll scream it in your face
Until every ounce
Of your body shakes
Tear me apart you sheep
I'll scream it in your face
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Broken Oars
04:06
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I've lost my sight in these clouded lies
I never wanted for you to find out
I kept it all inside
I can't confide, god knows I tried
It's hard to sleep while these demons haunt me all hours of the night
These brittle broken oars
Aren't able to row me ashore
Take my words and wring them dry
So just forget these things
And let me drift on out to sea
I'll give you anything other than me
I can't relate
I'm losing faith
But I know I'll see your face again
Your broken bones will mend
While mine stay laced with malcontent
All my shallow misshapen words are yours
Just say what you mean
I can't take back what I've seen
I've hung myself with the noose that you wove
You won't ever know
I can't relate
You've lost your faith
I doubt I'll see your face again
I see your brown eyes they close from the spark
I can never hold your heart
If you believe me I will seek the best
Hope to live in happiness
Hope to live without this mess.
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3. |
Leaving
06:15
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She is cold my friend we must understand that this was going to happen again
The birds will sing, not so inspiring and I lack the wisdom
Of how to love
I wish I knew how to feel
I know it's hard to read the stories on my hands
If only you, could understand
I am not the man I was, no longer a hungry soul
Can't you see I am my own worst enemy
My story, will unfold
I'll just keep drowning
Burying these things within
Worries eat away at me, for I have sinned
Sometimes I think of you
It tears me up but I always knew
You'd leave the things you need
To please the ones you put in front of me
I wish I could come home again, I'm branded a fool
I wish I could be whole again, I've left too much behind
A disembodied soul, trying to have me for it's own
Put me to rest for my best is not the best
God I'm not sure, if I can pass this test
I'll just keep drowning
Burying these things within
Worries eat away at me, for I have sinned
Sometimes I think of you
It tears me up but I always knew
You'd leave the things you need
To please the ones you put in front of me
You're just trying to please,
and I know that you're keeping things away from me, It's not easy
You lost yourself along the way, wandering these streets for a place to stay
(I know that you're all alone, though I said I'd be forever yours)
You're just trying to please,
and I know that you're keeping things away from me, It's not easy
Turning away from this, pretending we're not the ones you miss
You'll just keep waiting,
Always yearning for her hand
The virgin lamb
When she's with
Another man
I don't even want to pretend
That we don't want to go back again
With every minute mistake that you crave
You can come back to me when you see my grave
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4. |
To Forget
06:06
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I see the way that you sleep
Watching you is so comforting
Knowing that you can rest so comfortably without me
Nights spent losing sleep
(You said it all)
I will take back what you wanted
I will rip my heart out of my chest
Burn it down, so you'll remember
I was always your favorite
I used to long for just a sip
But now it's much too bitter for my lips
So won't you close the grip around my throat
As long as you hold me close
Hold me close and quell the last of my delusional hope
So when you come to me in my dead of sleep
Why won't you take what you need?
I gouge my eyes repeatedly
In hopes your face would fade discreetly
Even if you are laying next to me
I can't sleep
You're only alive in my dreams
I will take back what you wanted
I will rip my heart out of my chest
Burn it down, so you'll remember
I was always your favorite
I was always your favorite
But now I'm gone
Yet, you still get along
And I'll trudge on
In this life that I don't belong
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5. |
Squander
06:53
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I can confess but believe me it's true
You walk all day in a fog of abuse
When you see, we will be, at the front of the pack
I know you won't care about what we lack
I wish that we could all see
How futile is our crying
We'll sit and watch as all our seeds
Will grow and bloom into nothing
The soil is putrid and diseased
Was it worth all this fighting?
I'm just the sum of my bad deeds
They'll swell and sprout into...
Sprout into hate, it was no mistake
You will find me drinking at the bottom of the lake
I can't be sure of your intentions to love
Broken, afraid
Strength is hard to regain
I can't be saved, I'll end up starving alone
End of my days, You'll find me praying for grace
I wish that we could all see
How futile is our crying
We'll sit and watch as all our seeds
Will grow and bloom into nothing
The soil is putrid and diseased
Was it worth all this fighting?
I'm just the sum of my good deeds
They'll swell and sprout into nothing
I know I'm not okay
But I'm not afraid, I'm not afraid
I see my reflection
It isn't clear, I'm not really here
I know I'm not the same
And I want to change, how can I change?
I'm numb to everyone
I swear to God, I'm at the very end of my rope
I'm fading so fast
I've lost who I am
Sure, I'm still here
But I can't comprehend
Why I just can't be happy
Even though everything seems so complete in harmony
Something is not right
Something's here with me
You reek of deception
The smell is rancid, how can one stand it?
Your tongue is running rampant, lies so stagnant
We are all the same
A crowd of sinning saints
Show some restraint
Yeah, we are all the same
Crying to be bathed
Rotting youth of today
We can't be saved, beating the corpse of a dead saint
I know this scares you to hear, so blatantly spoken
With lives so broken, it seems sure to me
You won't be saving me
Who are you my friend?
Who was the one who let you in?
I don't recognize your face
It's so faint, another time, another place
Who are you my dear?
Who you are, I fear
Who is this person in the mirror?
How did you, end up here?
(You've planted this seed in me.
It's bloomed into such hatred
for your wretched excuse for importance)
Who are you to say?
Who are you to lay? (with someone else)
Who are you to love?
Who are you to cry?
Who are you to die?
(Am I any lesser of a person
because I don't live and breathe
in the same sin and filth as you?
I've found my own disease.)
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