Discography

by Captives

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1.
05:21
2.
04:08
3.
04:27
4.
05:01
5.
05:13
6.
04:06
7.
06:15
8.
06:06
9.
06:53
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Tracks 1 - 4 are originally off of My Eyes Are Open, released in 2012.
Tracks 5 - 9 are originally off of Afterimage, released in 2013.
Tracks 10 & 11 are previously unreleased tracks, recorded in 2014.

Note: If you already have our first two EP's, you can download the two new songs individually.

credits

released 04 December 2014

All songs were Mixed, Mastered, Produced and Engineered by Stephan Hawkes

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Track Name: Forsaken
Be no sheep, hiding in your own skin. I can tell a stranger dwells within. These walls grow numb for a moments bliss, false truths that only you will miss. While you waste away, I won't waste away.

I am the Shepard leading your lost way. I am the Charon who's debt you must pay. Black and blue I see right through your weightless words. Use me now, take your bow, cast me with lepers.

When you wake in your cold damp sweat, writhing in all of your regret I know you'll turn for comforting, to your poison bedside remedy. While you waste away, I won't waste.

I am the Shepard leading your lost way. I am the Charon who's debt you must pay, black and blue I see right through your weightless words. Use me now, take your bow, cast me with lepers.

I am an imposter, she is all I can offer. You lay claim to rule it all, but I will rise and you will fall.
Track Name: Abandon
You want to come back but we say that there's no hope. You want to come back but we must replace the rope. We all say it's the devil at your door. Only time will tell how long you can ignore.

Why am I so blind to see you're everything I've been dying to forget. Why am I the one to blame you're the hunter I'm the prey. You keep holding on.

I know the reason behind your fears. I know the reason behind those tears. Your pretty blond hair, I hope you stay there and never return. Thank you god and thank you brother, my lesson is learned.

Why am I so blind to see you're everything I've been dying to forget. Why am I the one to blame your the hunter I'm the prey. You keep holding on.
Quit your faking.

You said, "Hold me in closer while I pretend that I want no other". Now I'll fall asleep again alone.
Track Name: Ugly
We all act upon request, waiting for our time to impress you with our colorful display. I knew that it would fall through anyway.
I'll try to look past this mess you've made under your breath, speaking so only few can hear. This won't help you conquer me my dear.

You said, "I will never let you fail". I lack the truth, god covered my eyes said I'd forget you.

Look at how far we all have come. Emotions have all surrendered numb. This weight has never felt so light. Once again I'll sleep alone tonight.
Your face is always on display. I'll brave through another day unfulfilled and broken, this sin we lay soaking in.

You said, "I'm so devoted to you". I believe in the burning of these temples and the spotting of these hands. You said "I've never felt better than you". I breed in vain, my vices will put yours to shame.

What's one more night? What's one more ceiling? you've seen a thousand. Your words are bleeding. Aching and thirsting with unrest, waiting for your next chance to undress.

You turned out like the rest.
Track Name: Grace
So we bowed our heads and we took the bread. Misguided souls soon to be fed. I lay awake every night in my bed. Please god help me all I need is rest. Yeah I promise I'm trying my very best.

Even though I'm young I still feel old. Like a book that's written, a story told. I am responsible for your pain, yes I am the disappointing summer rain. Yes I am the crossing train, yes I am the one you need to entertain.

So we took the time and we took it back. All deaf from hearing my voice crack. We shouted out to the heaven above, " Have I lost your love".

Then I saw your face above the clouds. My yearning heart began to pound. My fist firmed tightly with rage, and there was no peace for seven whole days.

I still taste you on my tongue. I miss chasing love while I was young. I miss standing in my place, and now I fall from your grace.
Track Name: All I Have
The stench is rancid on my lips
They're stained from you
Can't come clean like they used to
The light is closing in
Can't stand the person that I've been
It's blinding me

I still can't breathe when you're around me
(or) see when you're around me

I can break his name
Watch it all fade
The city we have built
The sweat and blood spilt
I would throw it all away, for you, anything

I can mend this truth or I can leave it up to you
But if you light it I will watch it burn
Don't depend on me, oh the sweet irony
As if I could actually, depend on you

I can't take this back
Though I wish I could
If you could only see, the things inside of me
They will destroy everything
What you see is what you get
My head held high, filled with regret

I know this bridge was built to break
I hope you're there when it falls
I'm the only one who treads upon
You can watch as I lose it all
I've got my veins all crossed
I've never been this so far gone
Just know I want to leave
But I know you need me

I can mend this truth or I can leave it up to you
But if you light it I will watch it burn
Don't depend on me, oh the sweet irony
As if I could actually, depend on you

I don't want your excuse, its about me
If you'd prefer somewhere else, by all means
I bet you'd like me to sing, so softly
In the morning you wake, what a fantasy

You're scarabs in my skin
You are my crimson stain
Feed from me you sheep
I'll scream it in your face
Until every ounce
Of your body shakes
Tear me apart you sheep
I'll scream it in your face.
Track Name: Broken Oars
I've lost my sight in these clouded lies
I never wanted for you to find out
I kept it all inside
I can't confide, god knows I tried
It's hard to sleep while these demons haunt me all hours of the night

These brittle broken oars
Aren't able to row me ashore
Take my words and wring them dry
So just forget these things
And let me drift on out to sea
I'll give you anything other than me

I can't relate
I'm losing faith
But I know I'll see your face again

Your broken bones will mend
While mine stay laced with malcontent
All my shallow misshapen words are yours
Just say what you mean
I can't take back what I've seen
I've hung myself with the noose that you wove
You won't ever know

I can't relate
You've lost your faith
I doubt I'll see your face again

I see your brown eyes they close from the spark
I can never hold your heart
If you believe me I will seek the best
Hope to live in happiness

Hope to live without this mess.
Track Name: Leaving
She is cold my friend we must understand that this was going to happen again
The birds will sing, not so inspiring and I lack the wisdom
Of how to love
I wish I knew how to feel

I know it's hard to read the stories on my hands
If only you, could understand
I am not the man I was, no longer a hungry soul
Can't you see I am my own worst enemy
My story, will unfold

I'll just keep drowning
Burying these things within
Worries eat away at me, for I have sinned
Sometimes I think of you
It tears me up but I always knew
You'd leave the things you need
To please the ones you put in front of me

I wish I could come home again, I'm branded a fool
I wish I could be whole again, I've left too much behind
A disembodied soul, trying to have me for it's own
Put me to rest for my best is not the best
God I'm not sure, if I can pass this test

I'll just keep drowning
Burying these things within
Worries eat away at me, for I have sinned
Sometimes I think of you
It tears me up but I always knew
You'd leave the things you need
To please the ones you put in front of me

You're just trying to please,
and I know that you're keeping things away from me, It's not easy
You lost yourself along the way, wandering these streets for a place to stay
(I know that you're all alone, though I said I'd be forever yours)

You're just trying to please,
and I know that you're keeping things away from me, It's not easy
Turning away from this, pretending we're not the ones you miss
You'll just keep waiting,

Always yearning for her hand
The virgin lamb
When she's with
Another man

I don't even want to pretend
That we don't want to go back again
With every minute mistake that you crave
You can come back to me when you see my grave.
Track Name: To Forget
I see the way that you sleep
Watching you is so comforting
Knowing that you can rest so comfortably without me
Nights spent losing sleep

(You said it all)

I will take back what you wanted
I will rip my heart out of my chest
Burn it down, so you'll remember
I was always your favorite

I used to long for just a sip
But now it's much too bitter for my lips
So won't you close the grip around my throat
As long as you hold me close
Hold me close and quell the last of my delusional hope
So when you come to me in my dead of sleep
Why won't you take what you need?

I gouge my eyes repeatedly
In hopes your face would fade discreetly
Even if you are laying next to me
I can't sleep
You're only alive in my dreams

I will take back what you wanted
I will rip my heart out of my chest
Burn it down, so you'll remember
I was always your favorite

I was always your favorite

But now I'm gone
Yet, you still get along
And I'll trudge on
In this life that I don't belong.
Track Name: Squander
I can confess but believe me it's true
You walk all day in a fog of abuse
When you see, we will be, at the front of the pack
I know you won't care about what we lack

I wish that we could all see
How futile is our crying
We'll sit and watch as all our seeds
Will grow and bloom into nothing
The soil is putrid and diseased
Was it worth all this fighting?
I'm just the sum of my bad deeds
They'll swell and sprout into...

Sprout into hate, it was no mistake
You will find me drinking at the bottom of the lake

I can't be sure of your intentions to love
Broken, afraid
Strength is hard to regain
I can't be saved, I'll end up starving alone
End of my days, You'll find me praying for grace

I wish that we could all see
How futile is our crying
We'll sit and watch as all our seeds
Will grow and bloom into nothing
The soil is putrid and diseased
Was it worth all this fighting?
I'm just the sum of my good deeds
They'll swell and sprout into nothing

I know I'm not okay
But I'm not afraid, I'm not afraid
I see my reflection
It isn't clear, I'm not really here
I know I'm not the same
And I want to change, how can I change?
I'm numb to everyone
I swear to God, I'm at the very end of my rope

I'm fading so fast
I've lost who I am
Sure, I'm still here
But I can't comprehend
Why I just can't be happy
Even though everything seems so complete in harmony
Something is not right
Something's here with me

You reek of deception
The smell is rancid, how can one stand it?
Your tongue is running rampant, lies so stagnant
We are all the same
A crowd of sinning saints
Show some restraint
Yeah, we are all the same
Crying to be bathed
Rotting youth of today
We can't be saved, beating the corpse of a dead saint
I know this scares you to hear, so blatantly spoken
With lives so broken, it seems sure to me
You won't be saving me

Who are you my friend?
Who was the one who let you in?
I don't recognize your face
It's so faint, another time, another place
Who are you my dear?
Who you are, I fear
Who is this person in the mirror?
How did you, end up here?
(You've planted this seed in me.
It's bloomed into such hatred
for your wretched excuse for importance)
Who are you to say?
Who are you to lay? (with someone else)
Who are you to love?
Who are you to cry?
Who are you to die?
(Am I any lesser of a person
because I don't live and breathe
in the same sin and filth as you?
I've found my own disease)
Track Name: Permanent Solution
I wish that I could leave
More than what's in the drawer by the sink
So my apologies
For I will be leaving this life prematurely

Stacy I swear it isn't you, I swear it's me
My prides been pulsing steady through my veins
It's been pumping all this shame into my brain
Which I'll leave you so untastefully

When you wake at night
Pay no mind
To the absence of me at your side
(Just) fall asleep

I'll just wait
(You've been secreting)
Take my side
(Love and trust)
We can make
(While I've been rusting)
A new life
(You can't oil me back up)

Just stay strong
(This life I'm leading)
Stay with me
(Is not enough)
Something's wrong
(So I'll be leaving)
It's plain to see
Please don't do this to me

You know I'll always love you

I can't believe you'd leave me behind
I wish we could rewind to make our love mine
I guess that this means I'll forget our dreams
The thought of them now is so crippling

I'll empty out my lungs
I'll curse the things you lost
(Just hold my hand)
All of them weren't enough
(I'll just pretend)
I need you to hold me and tell me it's okay
(This isn't the end)
Your absence has become my crutch

(Maybe I'm just fine)
You made this choice for us
The way you left was so unjust
Your hurt was not enough
Horrid lead that spilled our love

Maybe I'm just fine.
Track Name: Temporary Problem
If it came down to me I know
The time will wash away with winter snow
If it came down to me I know we'd be walking in harmony

Here I am to hear the words you preach with a grain of salt
Knowing your intentions to a fault
Here I am again to feel the way your beauty shocks
Open up a path, wander into dark

Judge me I'm not your friend
I need you like I need a hole in my head
Boasting ill-will incessantly
Is this really who you want to be

Could have solved it
If only you were honest
Almost lost it
I guess it's not your problem
Could have solved it
If only you were honest
Almost lost it
Because you wouldn't tell me anything

Now I wish I started this path so long ago
It's tearing me apart and the go is slow
Here I am again starting all over
Again and again and again
When will it end?

Your head's filled with such wretched things
Your bigoted ideologies
I compromised my integrity
Just to keep you from trying to leave

I know you said it's all the same
But we paint on different planes
I know you said it's all in vain

I never thought I'd say
Forget your faith
As you lay
On my chest
I will be the one to catch your last breath.